youthsewage | first day being yourself dot dot dot

finally home from the my chem show, but i'll probably post this tomorrw because right now i'm just so drained. i have no words- mostly i'm still processing and digesting the fact that i actually saw that live. i was there. in person

first of all, the local opening band was cool. i can see why they chose them, and i love that they’re mcr fans too, so they were just as hyped as we were. it was fun, but they just had like. maybe half an hour set, so it was a bit short

the second opener was the hives. i’d listened to some of their stuff months before the show and wasn’t super convinced because i didn’t really get the vibe (doesn't mean they're not cool btw), but seeing them live is a whole different thing. the band is amazing, especially the lead singer (can’t remember his name right now, sorry, i’m sleepy as hell guys). he was so cool to us. he even stopped the show for a minute to ask the crowd to back up a few times because people kept pushing against the barrier. their songs are so catchy, and he was just fun to interact with. the "forever the hives" chorus thingy is still stuck in my head. i’m officially a hives fan now lol

then, the my chem set. i knew what i was getting into, but hell, i was still so excited. seeing the black parade set in person is something else- it just hits you with this wall of reality of "oh fuck, they’re literally right there!!!" even though i'm too stunned to feel anything but exhaustion, i’m just so happy i got to see them

as a latin american, this means everything. seeing your favorite band live changes your life, and it changed mine i guess

the encore??? god, it was majestic. i’m still in shock that i got to sing lady of sorrows, vampires, and to the end. i definitely ruined my throat screaming along to ghost of you and na na na, but i don’t even care. i’ve never been happier lol

to be all sappy and emotional for a second, this band and this specific show pulled me out of some really dark times last year. i kinda looked up at this show as my salvation- there was no way i was going to leave this world without seeing my chem come back to my country after eighteen years. and i did it, i finally experienced it, and i survived those weird dark times to get here. i won, in a way-i could never thank this band enough.

anyway, sappiness aside, the setlist was stunning and the crowd was wild. i didn’t realize how loud we were until i saw gerard break character for a second to laugh at how loud everyone was. it was amazing. i hope they come back soon, because we’re gonna miss them a lot after this

i'm gonna shove a few photos here (at least the ones i took when i wasn't busy singing my voice away)